You might wonder what exactly I am
doing here in Haiti. I conceived of this project a few weeks after
the January 12th earthquake. When I first learned of the earthquake
I felt the impulse go to Haiti right then and help dig people out of
rubble and bring water to those with none. Luckily for all, my
friends made it clear that as a grad student, not a doctor, I would
have very little to offer to those with lost houses, lost relatives,
broken limbs. In such a disastrous situation, I would probably have
need to be cared for more than I could have cared for anyone else.
But after reflecting for awhile, I concluded that being a historian
did not make me totally useless. It seemed to me Haiti future(s) were
going to be shaped in the crucible of the earthquake
and its aftermath, that whatever was coming in these next years would
only make sense it light of this particular present moment. But of
course, what you read in the newspapers and in UN press announcements
doesn't seem like it could be real. That's because it's not. Most
mainstream media sources, in my opinion, are paying more attention to
what the audience whats to hear and read about Haiti than what is
actually happening on the ground. I decided that I can try to create
non-institutional documentation of this present moment so that
researchers in the future can have alternative voices and opinions
about the earthquake and reconstruction. By trekking around
Port-au-Prince with a notebook and a tape recorder, I am creating
what I hope will become an archived collection of interviews with all
kinds of Haitians about their thoughts on the earthquake, conditions
of living in Port-au-Prince, the international occupation of Haiti,
and what is being done to move this country forward.
Three weeks in I can say with
confidence that this is easy to say, and very hard to do. First of
all, access "all kinds of Haitians" is a joke. I mostly
hang out in one refugee camp close to my house where I have made some
friends. What does that say about my the representativeness of my
samples? While it is easy enough to get interviews with people, few
people are willing or comfortable sharing their true perspectives
with me. In regular conversation people are open and animated, but as
soon as we are in "interview mode", answers to my questions
become brisk, a few words or a single sentence. Or people say what
they think they should say to a "blan" like me. For
example, recentlye I saw people come to blows over aid distribution,
but each time I ask if there is ever any conflicts between people in
the camp, people say "no, never, we live together like brothers
and sisters." Part of the problem, I know, is that Darly is
often my translator, and he is one of the camp leaders. Thus people
often makes comments about how the leaders of the camp do a great job
keeping people safe and organized, or how Darly himself is personally
to thank for their well being. While there might be a certain degree
of truth to that, hjs presence definetely influences responses. I
know they see things they won't talk about with me because I see
them too. But my observations doing matter in the frame of an oral
history project, it's all about the perspectives of the people I
interview. I can't add a footnote to the interview transcription that
reads "untruth". If I was an anthropologist I could do a
whole schtick on the per formative aspects of the interview and the
image of camp-life that people want to project for whatever reason.
But I'm not. Of course maybe in the future the line between history
and anthropology will have been worn thin.
The other problem I am realizing I
face is that I never really chose what exactly I am here to find out.
I can't document a whole society. I lack focus, or maybe am
realizing I never had it to begin with. Since I am spending so much
time in the refugee camp, I find myself trying to document the
conditions of life there, and the local history of the camp. But I
also am meeting dancers, poets, and artists, and want to have a
series of conversations with them about the artistic community in
this city. I am talking to Evangelicalists and Vodou priests about
religion. And everyone has a story of the earthquake. In
conversations among Haitians, "are you a victim?" follows
shortly after "hi, what's your name, how are you?". I'm
also interested in documenting the various ways people invoke history
to explain the present situation: either they say nothing has
changed, it's always been like this; or they blame or bless the
Revolution; or if Duvalier was here things would be different; or the
Holocaust is connected to the earthquake through roundabout ways.
This is why I suspect I will be a shitty academic: I can't privilege
one question over all the others that animate life, plant my flag and
dig my little intellectual hole. I'm interested in everything.
Before I got here I thought society
was a deck of cards and the earthquake was 52 card pick-up. I thought
I could get here and document how everything was falling into place
in new Haitian order. Document the variety of possibilities that were
being shuffled through before the powers that be settled on one. But
now I'm here and I realize that even though everything seems unstable
and up in the air, this is in fact the new Haitian order. No one is
going to come and remove the rumble. No one will be picking up these
cards. Some people plan on staying in these tents for years. Aid
money trickles in with bags of rice and malaria pills. But no one is
going to build houses for these people, or factories for them to work
in. No one is going to pave the roads to keep the rubble and dust
from settling in the lungs. It's just like this now. On the
socio-political level, things are pretty depressing. But on the
individual level, life just goes on. I am in awe of the human
resilience I encounter on a daily basis here. People here are so
strong, especially the women. Guys mostly just sit around in the
shade, listen to the radio and joke among themselves. Women on the
other hand are constantly busy: are selling vegetables in the
street, carrying gallons of water on their heats, cooking for the
family, constantly washing clothes. That's really what I want to
document. How in a place where the state does absolutely nothing for
its people, people continue to do things for themselves.
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